REMEMBERING TO LAUGH
My test is tomorrow! I think at this point, it's time to just accept whatever stage of preparedness that I'm in, and just go for it. I had a friend tell me it was a piece of cake for him, but in all honesty, I have gotten my butt kicked in every way imaginable while trying to take my practice exams, and it has been quite demoralizing to say the least. I'm one of those people who take failure ridiculously personally and project it onto who I am and my sense of worth; but I'm learning the slow and painful way that I need to embrace my limitations as a part of who I am.
In any case, we shall see how it goes. I'll still be bummed if it doesn't work out, but even if it doesn't- my life is still full and rich and blessed and I am reminded of how all of it is completely undeserved, and that I am so lucky to be able to say that!
These are pictures that Taylor took from a while ago, but they remind me to smile and laugh and just take a chill pill and relax a little already! We were fighting about something at the time, but somehow he managed to make me laugh really hard despite the fact that I was angry. Sometimes I hate it when he does that because I want to stay angry to prove my point, but it reminds me that life is too short to insist on taking every little thing so seriously. He's really good at that and is always so supportive and encouraging in everything I try to do. Our relationship is anything but perfect, and we sure do get into our fair share of fights, but I'm really thankful for him and that he knows how to put with me and my moments of insanity.
Anyway, I decided to use one of the massage certificates he bought me for my birthday to unwind tonight after work, and I am literally counting down the minutes! I can't wait!!!!!!